Watching water boil
Cold Colorado + Glen Hansard
'Tis the season.
I'm learning how to cope with cold weather. Currently, I find myself shutting doors to find the perfect heater to room ratio..
I think I have the living room down, and there is little hope for bathrooms, I've decided.
In my last entry, I said how I have changed my hair...which has not only pushed me to make changes in my life, but has provided me with (observed by others) new characteristics:
Becoming blonde-ish has proved I do have a sense of style, and use make-up. Though, I'm sorry to say my clothes have not changed..nor has my application of makeup. =Positive characteristic.
Older men? I've been treated like I have little intelligence..
I spoke to a co-worker about this and she nodded her head at the latter. (She has it naturally, and understands this stereotype)
How discouraging!
I work at a gym/spa, and was speaking to a member about this- which turned into her fear of her daughters succumbing to the media's female ideal. She told me how her 12 year old had a sleep over one night, and the following morning enjoyed pancakes made by her mom. As my friend was making these pancakes, one of the girls asked for seconds-- which another shouted 'Eww! Fatty!'
We were speaking of how scary this was..this deep fear of being fat, and disliked. She was at the point of tears, uncertain of how to encourage her daughters to be...themselves.
Being a person that has struggled with anorexia, I didn't think I was the best to advise. BUT I'm also quite outspoken and will always give whatever "change" I have.
How sad that we place so much importance on our outward characteristics, instead of finding worth in the small things that make us individuals! I've known so many beautiful people, that the line between physical and inward beauty is so fuzzy I couldn't tell you what they were. Just beautiful.
This affliction is not just on females, men suffer as well. Where is the encouragement?
Don't get me wrong, living aesthetically is something that GREATLY interests me. BEING beauty is very different than what the media puts out there. (How fitting that Mika's 'Love Today' comes on now)
I suppose this is me encouraging us to. be.US.
This, here, is too damn short to not be, or do what you feel like. And I feel like so many people are not honest to those around them- whether it be their sexuality, selfishness, depression, happiness (why are we so suprised by those that squeal in excitement? I've never understood that one), love, or apathy- if those you care for don't accept you in your truest self..
They clearly don't care that deeply about you. We all have raw moments, and if people cannot accept your vulnerability?
They are not as important as you may have believed they were.
One thing that I have learned: Family is what you make.
I'm a little all over the place on this entry, but these 'themes' seem to be coming up an awful lot lately. Coincidence, though nice...doesn't seem to be the case.
I invite you to respond, if you feel necessary. If this has in anyway ignited you, voice it.
